At one point, Evan had to say to me, "Sarah, just stop for a second so I can see you!" I completely forgot that Evan could see us through the web cam just fine. It never occurred to me that Evan would actually want to see me when his kids were more than enthusiastic about showing off their half-eaten pancakes, reward charts filled with stickers, and drawings.
Sometimes I forget that Evan is really missing this. I feel somewhat drowned in the noise, the mess, and the chaos. I find myself overwhelmed by the constant clutter that follows me everywhere and the incessant chattering/whining/bickering/crying.
It can be easy to forget that he doesn't get to see this
Sure, I'm lonely without him. But even through the chaos, I am still home. I need to keep reminding myself that Evan really, truly, wishes he were too.