I hear it nearly every time I'm in the middle of navigating one of Evan's long business trips to China. Somebody, always meaning well, says something like this as I slowly blink back my frustration and my exhaustion and kick the dust bunnies and toys out of the way to smile in welcome. The truth of it is that I just CAN'T do it all when he is gone. We work so well as a team, he and I. We compliment one another so well that I feel like I just can't even operate as all of me without him here. Plus, he's the one who drags my butt out of bed in the morning and right now the five alarms I have going off every day just are not cutting it.
I cried over Skype to him the other morning, letting go of some of the fatigue and expressing how it feels like my whole aim when he is gone is just to keep my head above water and avoid drowning.
He told me to go to bed.
But what about all the chores that need to be done?
What about the blog?
I have to do my Bible study at night!
When am I supposed to work on my scrapbooking that's already months behind?
What about all the THINGS?!
His simple answer was, "Later."
And he's right. Sure, there are commitments I have that must be adhered to, but the stuff that can be juggled is just going to get pushed to "later."
Sit tight with me for a little while friends. I'll be back....LATER.