Friday, October 4, 2013

Five Minute Friday: Write

Happy Friday everyone!  I'm currently typing with the laptop at the kitchen table, surrounded by random Legos and a toddler covered with dried yogurt from breakfast who has swiped my good pen to scribble marks all over a Post-It Note where I had started a grocery list.  I've found that if I don't choose to write in the midst of the chaos, it just won't happen.  It's kind of like when my customers last night would say things like, "When you get a chance, could I get another glass of water?"  I wanted to tell them that I would never get a chance, that I was literally running around the restaurant at warp speed and that I did not have time to get that glass of water in between Table 4 needing me to put in their food, Table 3 needing me to bring them their bottle of wine, Table 7 needing me to add up their check and bring it to them, Table 1 needing me to run their credit card, and Table 5's food sitting in the window and the cook screaming my name so I will drop everything and come take it out.  That glass of water just wouldn't happen if I waited for the perfect time.

If anyone invents a way to splice myself into two or three independently operating entities, please let me know as soon as possible.  It will make night like last night much more manageable

Moving on to Five Minute Friday, even though I'm fairly certain I've already broken the rules by writing an introduction.  Please don't tell on me.

Here are the rules as laid out by Lisa-Jo.

Basically, you set a timer for five minutes and just WRITE.  No editing, no stopping to second-guess yourself, just a free flow of your thoughts hitting paper....keyboard....whatever.  She gives the topic and then you just GO.   Then you link back to Lisa-Jo and invite others to join in.


Today's prompt is: WRITE


GO.

When I clicked over to read Lisa-Jo's post today, I found myself feeling a strange mix of adoration, excitement, and jealousy.  I love her style of writing, her honesty, the beauty she creates with words so I was incredibly thrilled to read that she has been writing a book!  Believe me, I'll be ready with my Amazon Pre-order when that baby drops.  (Pun totally intended.)

But.

At the same time, I was hit by a terrible wave of jealousy.  I've been blogging for five years and writing for a heck of a lot longer than that.  Writing is as natural as breathing for me.  It's part of who I am and it is the best way I know to be authentic.  I don't have to pretend when I write and I can just let the words flow without fear.  Words have such power to me.  If I were being really honest, I would admit how badly I want to write a book.

The bad news is that I have no idea what I would even write.  Do I even have a story?  I'm terrible at creative writing, so coming up with some original tale is pretty much out of the question.  I only know how to write....ME.  After reading so many wonderful bloggers like Lisa-Jo, Ree, Stephanie, Jessica, and countless others, it leaves me falling into that trap of comparison....the great thief of joy.

Writing is part of who I am, but I can't allow the question of "What if?" or "Why not me?" to steal the joy it brings me.

STOP.

2 comments:

  1. Oh, I so get that! It's part of why I took a blogging break for so long and finally scrapped my old blog. I love writing, I want to write, and yet who on earth would want to read an entire book of my caffeinated ramblings? Seriously.

    I am so glad I found you at Lisa-Jo's today, by the way!

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  2. I totally understand and relate to the jealousy. My blog is primarily a book blog, with bits of me throw in from time to time. I read and comment on the amazing writing of other daily, all the while I've been writing a book myself. One I doubt will ever be seem by the eyes of another.
    Keep writing you! I want to read your caffeinated ramblings!

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